Journal Four.

I say dawn for the first time. It began as a strang gray thing not as the gorgeous fanfare over the ocean as i exspected. Phineas was still sleeping, I turned over and tried to fall asleep again but i couldnt. So layed down and watched the gray sky. The ocean began to perked a little from the reflection of these colored silvers in the sky. There was bright high lights shone on the tips of waves, and beneath the surface i saw a midnight green. The beach was dead and a spectral gray-white. Then finally it was totally white and stainless.
   Phineas woke up talking his words, " That was one of the best night sleeps iv ever had''. There was time for a short swim and before i finished my sentance he was running down the beach taking his clothes off as he ran. He jumped in the water and enjoyed his fast swim. Finny told me that i worked to hard with everything in school and out. ''Nobody at Devon had ever been so sure of graduationg then you are", is what he told me. "you want to be ahead of the class, so you can make a speech on graduation day". Those words keep replaying inside of my head. I thought it was a pretty well thought out goal to have, it was rational and it could happen if i did my best at everything i did.
  Finny wanted to reck my studies, maybe he was jealous or maybe he just didnt care. He always got Ds in every class and seemed to be okay with it. He was a very good athlete and was ahead of me in that i have to admitt. After this i had become an even better student, not like i wasnt before. Me and Chet Douglas never got along but for some reason we didnt bump heads as much and it began to make me feel better knowing we were okay and he wasnt just my biggest rival in the class anymore.

Journal Three

  I remember our club'' The super suicide society of the summer session". Finny had pretty much saved my life, but at the same time he almost lost it for me as well. "i wouldnt have been on the limb except for him, i wouldnt have turned around, and lost my balane, if he hadnt been there". Our club was a success from the start. We thought schools were supost to be combined with secret societies and underground brotherhoods. We met everynight to initiate the ''trainees''. Finny and I had to jump off the tree everytime to open the meeting.
  I hated it. Everytime the limb seemed like it was getting higher and higher and thinner and thinner. The water seemed deaperand harder to reach. I always jumped though, i didnt want to loose face with Phineas. Iv never missed a meeting, i never wanted to go but i didnt want to addmit it. I remembered the words ''Never say you are five feet nine when you are five feet eight and a half''. Everyone always wins at sports when you play a game you're a winner. Finny never premitted himself to realize that when you won they lost. Nothing bad had ever happened in sports, they were absolute good. He was discusted in the summer athletic program. I rememered as i walked out on the field, it was green and completly empty. The tenis courts were full, the softball dimand was was completly busy. I remember seeing Finny walking slowly towards the tower, perhaps he was thinking that we might carry it the rest of the way to the river and throw it away. He stood bouncing the medicine ball enjoying the feel of it, "All you really need is a round ball".

Journal Two

The following morning our absence from dinner was noticed. Mr. Prud'homme stopped by our door. He had broad shoulders, and he wore a gray business suit. He had inforced the rules and well missing dinner was one of them. Finny tried to explain to them that we had been swimming in the river and that there had been a wrestleing match as well. I remembered his words ''If you hadnt already missed nine meals in the last two weeks''. I remembered the disipointed look upon his face. Finny began to tell him what really happened. " The real reason sir,was that we just had to jump off a tree. He tried to explain that they had to because they were getting ready for the war.
   He was saying that he was worried that the drafting age could be lowered to seventeen and him and i would be that age by the end of the summer. Finny had even looked at it from a sexual point of veiw as well. I rememered how wild and careless we were then. I mean we were sixteen year old boys. Phineas was surprisingly unconcerned about the war. It never seemed to affect him in any way. I remembered that summer perfectly.

Journal One.

  Today i went back to my old highschool called Devon School. I havnt been to the school in fifteen years and yet everything started to come back to me. The walls were polished the floors clean. And the school was all glossy. I didnt like that to much. The school seemed to be almost like a museum. The school seemed so lifeless its like when i was there it was alive and now that im gone its dead. I could feel the fear i used to have running through my veins as it did when i was in Devon School.
  I went to see a few places after i had lunch. i walked down Gilman Street, ''The houses were as handsome and unusual as i remembered''.  I never really saw anyone go in and out of them. They seemed to almost be fake. i started to remember the tree and the memories he and his friuends made there. I remembered finny, he was one of my bestfriends then. His words replay in my mind. "its you pal'' ''just you and me''. I remembered the school during the summer, only about 200 kids where there during that time. I walked passed the first academy building. The lights were so dim and almost lifeless. The light could only be seen from a few of the many windows in the building. I remembered everything like it happened only yesterday.